i'm not awsome... i'm beyond it!

have you ever felt so alone and scared in a place where no one speaks your language?

when you’re new in a place, locals look at you weird, like you have an extra set of eyes or another head protruding right beside you… and sometimes they stare at you like you’ve a friggin’ plague that’ll infect them with shit and stuff just by breathing the same air as them…

i don’t get people like those, the ones who judge you and size you up just because you’re new or because of the way you dress or both…

why are most people like that? don’t they know it’s VERY rude to stare…

honestly, they’re too judgmental… they don’t even bother finding out why and just head on making assumptions that are almost never true…

…let’s take it slow, so slow, anywhere you wanna go, baby for you i’d lay it all on the line…

no really… i need to know… some how i was born with the inability to initiate a friendship…

sometimes i think it’s because i’m initially afraid to be rejected but in the long run, i don’t really like to care about it… or maybe, i’m just afraid to make more enemies… i suck at reading people when they talk to me… i prefer to observe…

usually, me making friends starts with a Q&A portion… then the other person introduces themselves then it’s just like that… other times, it’s through a common friend…

frankly speaking, i don’t even remember how i made friends with my friends today… it just happened…

to the one/s reading this, if you got some tips, please share… i really need to know how… i feel so forever alone… :(

sa lahat-lahat ng bagay na dumaan sa buhay ko… ang pag bo-blog sa tumblr ang pinaka na-miss ko…

bakit?

eh kasi, dito ko lang na bubuhos lahat ng saloobin ko…

dito ko nilalagay ang mga gusto kong sabihin kapag walang nakikinig…

in fairness, first time in a long time ko nabuksan ang blog ko at malamang sa malamang, centuries ulit bago ko buksan ito ulit para makapag blog…

ang hirap ng busy mag review… muka na akong libro!